So I created this profile on an online dating site temporarily just to pass some time. Let’s be honest.. It is quite entertaining and I find it helpful in boosting my self-esteem by seeing how many guys reply to my profile and message me. Well temporarily boosts my self-esteem because sooner or later, I find all the guys that message me have one common denominator: SEX. Is it because I state on my profile that I am a transsexual? Or is it my main picture exposing my cleavage and looking up at the camera with my “come fuck me” look.
Don’t get me wrong.. I would love to be in a monogamous relationship. But how can I be in a monogamous relationship if all guys want is to have sex? When guys message me, it usually starts with, “Hello, wow! You are beautiful! I am not gay, but I think you are hot!”
Or “Wow! Good job! You really fooled me! Have you had the surgery yet?”
Based on my experiences with men, the moment that I start opening up about my gender and being a transsexual, the energy towards me changes, the conversation instantly becomes sexual and oozes “let’s get it on!”
This would only be okay if once I did have sex with someone and it was followed with cuddling and laughs. But in most cases guys just want to hit it and quit it followed by a 2am text of, “What’s up, what are you doing?” on a Saturday night. This gets really old after a while and it gets quite depressing.
I recently met a guy at the gym I go to everyday and we happened to exchange numbers. I opened up to him and said that I am transgender. Immediately he is inviting himself over to my place and I have not even known this guy for more than two days. Do guys think that just because we were assigned male at birth that we may also think about sex 24 hours a day… think about SEX all the time? Well I know I do.. Maybe not 24 hours, but I think about sex a lot! Of course I did not invite him over, but I was tempted.
I really wish that SEX was a lot more meaningless to me and I can just have major orgies all day with random guys (and I have thought about it), but I am also a human being who longs compassion and affection. Not only that being a big busty Trans woman complicate my love life, but also being an award winning anal whore. I guess I can’t turn back time and un-fists my hole now can I? Guess not….
I have been in the adult industry for 3 years now and my last relationship, which was 2 years ago, resulted in my boyfriend at the time stealing all my LV purses. I am not going to go into detail, but I just want to find a good man. A good man, with a job, who is a dominant top with a big cock, tall, funny, smart, empathetic, and not a Tranny Chaser.
Maybe my standards are really high, but why shouldn’t it be?