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Transgender Identity in children

Transgender Identity in children

An insight on how it feels to be different at a young age

Many of us have somewhat of an idea of how it feels to be different. Maybe we have been bullied early on in our lives or have had difficulty getting along with our peers. But have you ever wondered how it felt to be a child feeling shut out simply because you were born in the wrong body? To be told at a very young age that you should not exist and that your identity must be what you were assigned at birth.

Many of these issues are experienced by a growing number of trans-identified children in our society at present time. Many are confused and afraid of how they feel based on their gender identity. There have been studies that children as young as 3 years of age have started identifying as the gender opposite of what they were assigned at birth, but all of that quickly can become tarnished with shame and fear by the judgement of parents. Fear can become isolating to the true identity of that child.

At a young age, children can become very anxious and stressed with out being aware of these feelings. A child’s mind is innocent, curious and craves knowledge of the unknown. For a child, there is no bias on whether it is better to be a boy or a girl, they just simply feel and identify as to what they feel they are. A recent story covered was of a 3 year old in Berkeley, CA named Thomas who had a speech impediment and he signed to himself, “I am a girl.”

Oh look, he’s confused,” his parents said. Maybe he mixed up the signs for boy and girl. So they signed back. “No, no. Thomas is a boy.”

Regardless of what gender Thomas was assigned at birth, and that he was physically male, the toddler felt that he is a girl. Even being bullied in school and teased by his peers, he simply told them that he will always be a girl and that’s what he is.  Such a strong and powerful statement coming form a child. Having to stand by what Thomas felt was the right gender he wanted to be identified as.

When children like Thomas insist that their gender identity is different from which they are assigned at birth, there becomes a disconnect between their sex (which is anatomy) and gender, which includes activities, roles, and behavior. Thomas’ parents have allowed her to live her life as a girl, raised her as a girl and has since been called Tammy. Tammy is now 11 years of age.

When children insist they are a different gender early on, for the parents there can be a lot of judgement and fear; it can send the family to a lot of confusion since transgenderism is clouded by a lot stigma, very misunderstood and are feared by many; This sends parents at a tough predicament for majority yearn for what is the best for their child.  As a protective mechanism, parents at most times are forced to apply those same fears and judgements towards their children who they feel is doing the wrong thing and having the wrong ideas.

Gender identity falls under a very wide and complicated umbrella. There are over 50 different gender identities today in which people can identify and use. Many also confuse gender identity with sexual orientation which are two different things. Gender Identity is who we are and sexual orientation is who we want to have sex with. Simple as that. In Tammy’s case, a 3 year old will probably not want to have sex with anyone, so her gender identity is clearly driven by who she naturally is.

As a society we must be open to new and endless possibilities. In order to truly crush hatred and stigma, we must support our youth for they are the future of this world. Like Tammy’s parents, they seen their child’s future as who she truly wanted to be. Gender maybe a very complicated and scary subject, but that is only because of the fear our society has generated with labels in regards to gender identity and sexual orientation. We must extinguish that fear and have an open mind especially for our youth. Let us be supportive of the next generation and take the next step in acceptancing a third gender:TRANSGENDER.

Dating and why it’s complicated: The problems of an insatiable slut

So I created this profile on an online dating site temporarily just to pass some time. Let’s be honest.. It is quite entertaining and I find it helpful in boosting my self-esteem by seeing how many guys reply to my profile and message me. Well temporarily boosts my self-esteem because sooner or later, I find all the guys that message me have one common denominator: SEX. Is it because I state on my profile that I am a transsexual? Or is it my main picture exposing my cleavage and looking up at the camera with my “come fuck me” look.

Don’t get me wrong.. I would love to be in a monogamous relationship. But how can I be in a monogamous relationship if all guys want is to have sex? When guys message me, it usually starts with,  “Hello, wow! You are beautiful! I am not gay, but I think you are hot!”

Or “Wow! Good job! You really fooled me! Have you had the surgery yet?”

Based on my experiences with men, the moment that I start opening up about my gender and being a transsexual, the energy towards me changes, the conversation instantly becomes sexual and oozes “let’s get it on!”

This would only be okay if once I did have sex with someone and it was followed with cuddling and laughs. But in most cases guys just want to hit it and quit it followed by a 2am text of, “What’s up, what are you doing?” on a Saturday night.  This gets really old after a while and it gets quite depressing.

I recently met a guy at the gym I go to everyday and we happened to exchange numbers. I opened up to him and said that I am transgender. Immediately he is inviting himself over to my place and I have not even known this guy for  more than two days. Do guys think that just because we were assigned male at birth that we may also think about sex 24 hours a day… think about SEX all the time? Well I know I do.. Maybe not 24 hours, but I think about sex a lot! Of course I did not invite him over, but I was tempted.

I really wish that SEX was a lot more meaningless to me and I can just have major orgies all day with random guys (and I have thought about it), but I am also a human being who longs compassion and affection.  Not only that being a big busty Trans woman complicate my love life, but also being an award winning anal whore.  I guess I can’t turn back time and un-fists my hole now can I? Guess not….

I have been in the adult industry for 3 years now and my last relationship, which was 2 years ago, resulted in my boyfriend at the time stealing all my LV purses. I am not going to go into detail, but I just want to find a good man. A good man, with a job, who is a dominant top with a big cock, tall, funny, smart, empathetic, and not a Tranny Chaser.

OKAY…..

Maybe my standards are really high, but why shouldn’t it be?

Photo on 4-27-14 at 5_Fotor

Photo on 4-27-14 at 51_Fotor

 

Easter in Prague

Happy Easter everyone! It’s about ! am here in the Czech Republic and I am just about to pack all my stuff to get ready for my flight, but I decided to write a little bit about my trip. This trip has been really wonderful as I have never been to Prague  during a holiday. Obviously it is Easter and there was a festival going on for a whole week in Old town Praha. The festival was filled with people from all over the world and lots of great food and little trinkets to enjoy.

During my stay I did a lot of walking around and just people watching. I find this more enlightening than anything else cause I really get to watch people interact. I can also be in the moment while I just walk around, check out the little shops and food stands at the festival, check out cafes and have an espresso with some freshly baked pastries while I listen to the live music and entertainment. I have practically seen all the sights that Prague has to offer so relaxing while giving my palate orgasms with the different variety of goods during the festivities.

During this trip I really took some time to think whether I should get a little apartment in Prague. Since I frequent this magical place quite often for business, I might as well make this my second home. Don’t get me wrong I love the United States and my home in Summerlin, Las Vegas, NV.  But it would be quite a treat to call the Czech Republic as my second home. Well it pretty much is that I come here every month. Well I hope you guys like the pictures that I took form the festival! Enjoy!

 

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My heart is still in San Francisco

Good Morning everyone! About three years ago was when I first got into the adult industry and many of you wonder what I did before then.  I was living in San Francisco at that time in a small little studio in Union Square, taking up yoga and being just a normal young, free-spirited transgender woman trying to find herself in life.

Living in San Francisco has always been a goal of mine ever since I visited the city on my own for the first time when I was 16 years old . I was really amazed at how cool and different people were. I remember visiting fisherman’s wharf and seeing all the different people and things. So I ended up moving to San Francisco at the age of 21 and started working  as a bartender at a place called DIVAS which is a Transsexual Nightclub in the dark and grimy Tenderloin District of the city.

It didn’t occur to me that The Tenderloin was a dangerous place and all I knew at the time was this is the place where I belong. The Tenderloin was filled with crackheads, hipsters, and transsexual prostitutes on every corner.

I first started working at Divas as an exotic dancer every Wednesday and Thursday which hosted school girl nights on Wednesdays and DIVAS Darlings nights on Thursdays.  I remember shaking my ass and owning that stage like no other (or at least I thought I did haha). But I then got promoted to be a host and after a year was promoted as a bartender.

Being a bartender was fun and I got to meet so many people from all over the world. But what I loved more was the community that I became a part of working at the bar. I could really sense that there was love from all my brothers and sisters. There were also some cattiness, but I really felt people cared about me when no one else did. The bar was my second family, but at that time it was my first.

From time to time, when I am visiting San Francisco, I like to stop by at Divas and check in with my roots. I never want to forget where I was at one point in my life, that young girl who is still inside of me dreaming big and reaching for the stars. I value that bar and the community that it brings together.  It’s a place where young women like myself can feel safe and accepted. A place where people don’t have to be ashamed of who they are or what their sexual endeavors may be. So If you are ever in San Francisco, CA make sure you stop by DIVAS NIGHTCLUB on the corner of Polk St. and Post St. Have a drink and let it all sink in. =)

 

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Pre-Boob Job =)

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My Friends

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Can You believe this was me? Gay Pride Parade 2010. I used to volunteer for a non-profit as a peer leader for Asian Pacific Islander Wellness Center(API)

Such a great place

The Fannys

Hello everyone and good morning. As I am getting ready for my run I decided to write about another upcoming award, The Fannys 2014. Yes! This award is entirely up to you guys and is in your hands (vote for me here). It will take place on 4.12.2014 at the EXXXOTICA event in Atlantic City, NJ Taj Mahal hotel which I will be attending April 11th until April 13th. Now, not to toot my own horn or anything but if there was a horn I would probably shove it up my ass for your enjoyment. There I said it so you better vote for me because you know my ass will swallow you if you don’t! Love you!!!!

 

http://thefannys.com/nominee/category/transgender-star-of-the-year/

 

 

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Eva

 

 

BLOG UPDATE!

Hello everyone and welcome to my new blog! I feel happy that I am able to create my own blog space with my own domain, to be able to talk about my life, relationships and career. I apologize that I haven’t written on my previous blog for quite some time since I have had some really tough decisions I had to make in my business ventures. So that has taken me back a bit and kept me really busy.

I want to talk about what I have been up to as of lately. In a nut shell, I have been signed into an exclusive contract with TRANS500.com and we have been working non-stop on some really cool projects to come. One of which is TSDREAMDATES.com where you guys can sign up and win a date with me! I am really excited about this and the date will take place in June. You will just have to take care of the plane ticket to Miami, FL and my studio will take care of the rest. We will go out to a nice dinner and enjoy each others company for a night filled with laughs and intimate conversations.  You even have a chance to opt in to do a scene with me (in consideration that you will be able to preform).*smiles*

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I have also worked on a solo scene for TRANSATPLAY.com which was released yesterday. The scene is one of my best solos scenes I have ever done. I was really planning on shooting a hardcore scene with another T-girl that day , but due to “technical” difficulties I ended up just shooting a solo set which was awesome. I ended up really tearing another hole into my ass-pussy and at one point, I even shoved 2 toys in my butt. HA! They don’t call it an award winning asshole for no reason =p. (sorry Asa you are not the only one)

 

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I have been busy in my new home in Las Vegas, NV. I have been working a ton from home doing my web cam  modeling everyday. Everyday, unless of course I am shooting or traveling, I am on cam on SHEMALE.COM from 2pm PST until 6 pm PST. I am also blogging and writing an article for the next three months on the shemale.com magazine so don’t forget to check it out!

As you can see I have been super busy with my career and this year has really been awesome for me. I am so thankful for all of you and all of your support! I love all of you guys and make sure to sign up on TSDREAMDATES.com

 

 

 

AVN Awards 2014

Hello everyone! I can’t believe I won AVN “Transsexual Performer of the year 2014″ this past Saturday. I wasn’t able to recieve my award on stage because I didnt attend the event. But when I heard the news I was in shock! I just really didn’t think I was deserving this year. I am so thankful though for the respect and acknowledgement that I recieved from all my fans and people in the adult industry. I was also surprised at the amount of support I recieved from everyone. This really gives me more of a drive to work and perform harder this year. More importantly thank you to all of you… My fans! I love you all!

During the AVN after parties I hung out with some of my friends in Las Vegas and some popular faces in the industry. Like TS Foxxy, Asa Akira and Jessica Drake. We danced the night away and had so much fun! I am not a party goer and hardly go out much so that night really worked out my legs! Haha it was great.

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Shemale XtC #12 by Joey Silvera

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I love love working with Joey Silvera! I shot a solo masturbation scene for Joey about a couple of months ago and it is now available for purchase on evilangel.com

The scene starts out with me teasing the camera and Joey asking me when was the last time we got together. It’s been a little over a year since I’ve worked with him so we were both very excited to shoot some porn. I started playing with my giant boobs infront of the camera and then started playing with my tranny pussy hole with tons of huge dildos..hmmm I just love being nasty in front of the camera. Then Joey handed me a tomato….. Uh yes a tomato… So the first thing that came to mind is to stick that tomato in my tranny hole… Hmm yes I was able to make some really artistic gapes with that fruit.

On my way home after the scene I wondered if Joey put that tomato back in his fridge and made some salsa the next day. Hmmm I have to ask!

Proud of being a slut!!

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Awards Seasons!

Hello to all! As you all know or may know that award season is right around the corner! I am happy to say that I am nominated for multiple awards! As my favorite pornstar, Asa Akira would say, “I have an award winning asshole!” LOL. But seriously I am so proud of myself because it sure is not easy performing on camera.

Although it is not always easy performing and maintaining a camera ready body, I love everything about being an adult performer. I love the shock value I get from people and the reaction. I love when I am just going about my day and someone comes up to me and recognizes my work and says, ” Wow! You’re Eva Lin! I have spilled cum over your videos so many times!” It really touches me when people say that. It makes me think that I am actually making a difference in someone’s sex life by being a nasty little slut on camera.

So every year a lot of adult performers look forward to this “award season” because believe it or not, it gives us drive and motivation to be the best out there. Although results can be disappointing at most times it doesn’t hurt to keep wanting and yearning for that award. It’s like that cake that you have been baking throughout the whole year and finally you get to eat it at the end of the year. But for me ofcourse what motivates me most is how wonderful you guys have been. All my fans are a blessing to me and have kept supporting my career for 2 and a half years and for that I am so grateful.

I am happy to say that if I win an award I will give out a free cam show for all my fans on cam4.com
username: toomuch420

This year I am nominated for Xbiz Awards “Transsexual Performer of the Year”
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“Transsexual Website of the Year”
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Tranny Awards Fan Voting
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Thank you all for all your support!!

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Ts Playground 6 with Sheena Shaw and Spencer Fox

In the summer i shot a movie for one of my favorite directors for Evilangel Video, Jay Sin. The movie was so hot! Sheena and I started with playing with each other . I started sucking on a lolly pop and then I started sticking the lolly pop in her pussy and putting it back in my mouth. In this video theres a lot of ass to mouth and gaping. Ofcourse many of you know that my asshole is pretty talented when it comes to that kind of stuff. I just love shoving really big things in my ass. I love being used like a little slut. Anyways Sheena and I had the pleasure of being pounded by Spencer Fox’s big 9″ cock. The scene was so good and we all had so much fun so don’t forget to get your copy today! You won’t regret it!

To buy the Video:
Click here

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